I can’t be in a relationship right now. It’s time to focus on me. I have so many aspects in my life to deal with right now. I think the main reason I want to be in a relationship is so that I can focus my attention on someone else and continue to ignore my problems. What problems does a 26-year-old happy-go-lucky girl have? Plenty.
- I'm in debt. And not the good kind. It’s a small potatoes amount to many, but it’s more than I make in a month and I’d like it to go away. It keeps me from doing what I really want to.
- I’m over-weight. This might sound like a vain complaint, but it’s really not healthy. For my height I should weigh 110-126. No one ever believes me, but I’m pushing 145. Think I’m lying? Bring me a scale.
- I’m over-committed. I volunteer on too many committees and for too many projects. I need to focus on wrapping up a few of the projects, and then no longer biting off more than I can chew. I don’t need the stress in my life right now. I can’t please everyone.
- I’m an alcoholic. I don’t need a drink every day or even every week. But when I do drink, I binge. And it’s not healthy. It’s not safe. And to be honest, I’m terrified I wont be able to stop.
- I’m late every day. This isn’t life threatening, but it’s not ideal. I’d like to be a timelier person, a more reliable person.
- I procrastinate everything. I haven’t filed my taxes for 2010. I haven’t sent a demand letter to the girl who hit my car in March. I haven’t been to the dentist in 2 years. There’s a lot of little details in my life that I’d like to get on top of.
Basically, I need to focus on me. I can’t be in a relationship until I straighten myself out. I need to stop trying to hide behind someone else. I need to stop trying to ignore my problems. I need to stop running away. I need to step up and fix me. Because it’s my turn to be pampered. It’s my turn to be loved. It’s my turn to be happy. And the only person who can make that happen is me.
